I have a confession: I am not a good writer or blogger- I tend to think of a million things at the same time, which is why my updates are few and far between. However, my summer has been amazing! The Lord has blessed me greatly as support has poured in. He has taught me so much through the fundraising process and through working at a Day Care. I have learned a lot about grace this summer and this update ties into this and is an experience from yesterday.

Children say the craziest things!

      Well, today I was the substitute teacher in a 4-year-old class. This meant that from 6:30 AM- 3:00 PM, I was the only teacher in a class of sixteen 4-year-olds. While working in this class, a precious child went through extreme mood swings. I have enjoyed this boy through my time in this class, but he also made me evaluate my perspective of God today. This kid would look at me and say "You hate me!" if I ever corrected his behavior or asked him to do something he didn't want to. I would reply that I actually loved him and somehow try to communicate that I needed him to listen and I was looking out for him, but this didn't get us very far. I became frustrated but tried to persist in explaining and loving him. However, eventually I wasn't 100% patient or 100% loving and would just say that I loved him and make him obey the rules. But is this what I do to God? Do I question his every move if it isn't what I want? Do my actions or thoughts insinuate that God doesn't love me? While I know in my head that God desires the best for me, I often question his leading if it seems crazy to me. So maybe me and this 4-year-old have more in common, and maybe I need to listen to my own words- "I love you, and you need to listen; I am looking out for you."

      God's grace is amazing! If I will allow him to comfort and provide, He will. If I will not take it into my hands, His hands will masterfully hold it. He is enough and He is more than I can imagine!

"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrews 4:16